I have aged 10 years in 1

If this blog was a child I'd be thrown in jail for severely neglecting it. I'm in the midst of wrapping up my first year of grad school. I have a final tomorrow afternoon. Cancer Biology. My strong suit. And Stem Cell Biology on Monday....not my strong suit- despite the fact that I am joining a stem cell lab for my dissertation work. I am burned out. Really burned out. I need to to yard work, touch up painting, organize the garage, fish, bike, lose weight. Aaarrgggg!!!!! I need to some bands play. Its driving , me nuts none of my favorite bands come to Indy. Well, maybe not none. If I hear mTOR or or AKT one more time, I might explode.

More favorite song lyrics

I recently listened to a CD I haven't heard for years, Somery by the Descendents. I totally forgot how good this CD is. I grew up listening to these guys and one of my all time favorite songs is on this CD. Coolidge. So here are the lyrics to the song.


Coolidge

I'm not a cool guy anymore
As if I ever was before
I took a look at all the signs
Then rolled it over in my mind
The feelings I could not release
Became a bitter part of me
What was I thinking of?
It couldn't stay the way it was
I looked at my reflection
And I saw a stranger's face
I saw where I was going
And I had to walk away

I lost a girl, it's Just as well
She tried to save me from myself
I've still got her on my mind
Tossing and turning in my bed
But if she had stayed another week
I would have dragged her down with me
She took it till she'd had enough
Is that what I thought love was?
I told her "see you later"
But it's hard to see at all
At the bottom of the barrel
With your back against the wall

I'm not a cool guy anymore
Left it behind, then closed the door
I know you can't escape the past
Now I look back and have to laugh
I was my worst enemy
It almost got the best of me
What was I thinking of?
It couldn't stay the way it was
I looked up one day and saw that
It was up to me
You can only be a victim if you
Admit defeat

Sitting in Riley makes me sad.

Listening to Floodgate. I am almost in tears. Its making me think of home and reminding me of shows at the Che and Cafe Mesopotamia. Those were the days. I was so idealistic. I still am but now I am able to take my passions and actually apply them to something bigger. Funny how a few songs can make you remember the ideals that helped to shape you as a person. Its sad how emo has be come so MTVized.

Life at the moment

So grad school is going well. Its nice to be in Indiana. I really like it here. Tania does too. Our puppies are growing really fast. It seems like yesterday we went to adopted them. We are getting our fence put up this week. A shadow box fence. I am in the midst of our third round of exams. The stress of school is quickly catching up to me. Everyday it seems harder and harder to get up in the morning. I'm sure Tania is getting sick of me being a grouch. I have an exam this Friday. Genetics. Shouldn't be too difficult. But then again, some professors have a knack for pulling random questions out of their arses. Then next week, Biochem. I am dreading it. Thats what I get for being out of school so long before going to grad school. Anyways...I miss my family and friends in San Diego.

Lyrics of my favorite songs- Part 1

1000X NO!- Pop Will Eat Itself






10 x 10 x 10 x No!
A no-go for go-show
We're out on demo! Let's move
This motion! Prove the notion!
Celebration of hopeless devotion
There's no doubt
About our intention
We're shouting out
Our discension
Papers dig dirt we're out getting
Hurt. A sure cert.
The town's on red alert!
Is something for nothing
Really a dumb thing
Making swans out of
Ugly ducklings
It's the process of the mostest
No licking bum and no incest
You're lost in aw
In the candystore
The cost of the handywork
You adore...you can't afford
So took what you saw
I applaud! It's what
God made pockets for
Raid the bank
a smash for the cash tank
I no thank you and
Your crew and attitude
It's positively negative
Like radio sedaative
All take no give
Strain this shit
Through a seive and
See what still lives
Well I bet you've met your fate and
Now it's too late leave the stage
'Cost I've had my wait
JUst got to say no!
Just got to scream
Just got to say it! No!